Guess I should have known the answer.

The question is really redundant, but I just needed a confirmation. Well its all well and amicable.

Well at least that's out of the way. Now that I am more focused, I will garner all my strength and maintain personal discipline to achieve what I want and stop being a salary man.

Its really a pain to do things which you have no interest in doing, which do not benefit you. Or that you put your heart and soul into something which you know could have achieved even greater benefits if it was done for your own sake instead of for an organization which merely shakes your hand and congratulates you for having done a great service. Period.

Its really a pain to receive orders and be expected to do this and that, not for your sake but their own.

Sorry, but this just won't work.

I'm better than this.