5 days all to myself

With the Lunar New Year comes 5 days all to myself.

Sounds sad don't you think? Haha...well.

Anyway, this 5 days will be stuck in my room doing work. Creating, planning, and overseeing something that has the potential to be bigger than I have ever experienced before.

To put it simply.

I AM BACK!


This past few weeks since December 2006, things has been looking up. Remind myself to always be positive.

Listening to Rachmaninov Piano concerto No. 2 now as I am typing. The beginning of the song gives me the imagery of being in the open grasslands. As I slowly I open my eyes filling in the darkness with the sun rays creeping out from the horizon. The sun, contemplating on whether to come out and surprise me. The fresh morning breeze blowing on my face. And I just stood there. Waiting.

I really enjoy listening to this piece. It gives me that sense of emotional satisfaction. That calm, soothing feel which I really need right now, to brush aside the thoughts of lonesomeness.

Brush aside. That sounds like a temporary relief. I never really address the "problem".

If addressing the "problem" leads to a bigger problem. I think I'l be happier keeping it at bay for the moment.

But still. Lonesomeness.

Sigh.


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